Hi.

It's been waaaaay too long. Sorry. Winter is…busy and not busy, so a little confusing for me to deal with.
Busy with skiing, sledding, family stuff, which is great, but not busy with the work stuff, which is…isolating. I have to admit I have been a little lost in self-pity world.

I started off strong, I really did…thinking positively, sending great messages out to the Universe, really starting to "get" the meditation thing, finally…filming a couple of regional commercials in between.
Then, nothing. Nada. Zilch. ugh.

This winter has felt a bit isolating. I haven't been traveling to NY as much, because the weather and timing has not allowed for it, and it's leaving me feeling like I am missing out on so much. I have been submitting online, have established free-lance relationships with a couple of agencies, and have a one night only staged reading next week in Portland, and a great class starting in the near future…which are all good, right?

It is always in these "work ruts" that I start to feel lost. Like if I don't have some kind of something related to acting, and soon, that I will forget how, or lose my spark.

This is the hardest part of the industry for me. The not knowing my schedule from one week to the next. The not having something to schedule from one week to the next. Putting stage on a bit of a back burner to make more room for film opportunities has been both an empowering career choice, and very difficult, as it has been leaving my schedule a bit too open. This is where the dragons, or gremlins, or negative thoughts (or whatever you want to call them) come knocking and letting themselves in. Where the doubt hits. Hard.

My career coach Jenn has a blog and this week her subject matter is so timely and I can't wait to get it and read it…"Comparitivitis." Yep, guilty. When looking at others' FB posts, tweets, etc and seeing how busy they are, doing this, doing that, going here and there, blah blah blah…every day…and you start comparing yourself and wondering why you aren't as busy…sigh. I can't wait to read what she has to say about this one…you can sign up to receive her blog too…www.Jennlederer.com

Hopefully not too whiney today…I will sign off now, so thank you for your patience. I will keep plugging along and try my hardest not to get sucked into the void of monotony.

Til next time…! Cheers...